#105 past, present and future

situation in the past:-

i hate her

i dont want to see her

yet im still miss her

and yet i want to see her

it really painful

coz it was one sided only

and it always be liked that

can i have

some sort of what it called it

hope???

situation during present:-

before this

she gives me courage for PCS

and now during last presentation

im stand on my own

and i know how the feeling was

it is totally different

but then u know how i suddenly become energetic

coz during my presentation

i can see her sit in that class

is that ghost???

nvm it is over

situation in the future:-

physiologically said

no one know what happened in the future

but yet just now

i have met some guy [ im not gay ]

in my dream and asked me

if i give u a gf rite now,what will u do???

i answer that, i will luv her

he asked me again, r u sure u will luv her

or it just to fullfill your heart desire?

i start to numb and answer

can u give me my first luv again?

and then he said, no one can escape from death

either you or anyone else

if u ever luv someone truly

ask her to marry you

not to become your lover

because the true love is never exist between human

it is just desire or in malay word, nafsu

and i ask him again

what i know was

good girl is for good boy and bad girl is for bad boy

and he said its true

but dont be afraid

if u r still alive,u still got chance to change urself

become a good boy

i suddenly feel so sad and woke up

what a tough dream

yet i dont know what happened to me in the future

sigh!!

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