#117 i'm over doing it =P

yesterday the last class of PCS

and today i got my feedback

as expected,i am at that grade person

but its ok

it made me realize what i need to improve

owh yeah

yesterday too i had became

as strict as Dr Sumathi

know what, all my friends said

i took a longer time for organizer evaluator

sorry my friends

i dont meant to provoke or anything

just my eyes is the judges type of eyes =P

it is human nature

i had become as honest as i can

>_<

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#116 being compromise is not worth

officially i had sent my confirmation letter

and i will intern at PJ-petaling jaya

and i discover that

im the only one at that company yet

OMG......

what i need to do rite now..

i dont got any lisence yet

and i do got transport but still not confirm

the best thing is this my first time

living in this gigantic city

i hope i got courage living there

what the hell is my title about???

owh today i had seen her again

the one i admire

but still in my mind i hate her

and yet i still heppy

heppy heppy cat

but then i think

why i being like this??

there is another person for me

and yet i dont know

what the think that worth for me...

but the think that i know

being compromise doesnt worth a little

especially when i play dota

and there is 2 noob in my team

what can i do???huhu

>_<

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#115 the last challenge is here

i think today

is my last day

officially on this subject

called as PCS

and today too

i become the first time

and the last time evaluator

wakakaka...

so scared

can i be as strict as Dr Sumathi

or i just be myself and give comment unbearable

hehe..just some provokotion

i do know how to evaluate people

but i dont know how to said it

lets see what happened today

just be as normal as i am

to all presenter today..

gd luck..since this is our final class

dont be shy to perform

hehe as usual i will ask killer question

>_<

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#114 imaginary world can only be imagined

due to some stiffness

and sleepy thought

i came with 1 opinion

what r u imagined,

is it from ur heart

or just from ur thought?

children, we said that they are so pure

but back then when i was a children

i can see my sister fight

my parents fight

and all the bad thing

and i think this is the thing i will face later on

what i was imagined when i was a child

the funny thing is

i want a younger sister

seyesly at that time i felt so lonely

being a youngest of 12 siblings

simply to say it is the best

but hard to say, i felt alone all the time

i felt jealous to someone that got

younger brother and sistah

but up to now

i dont know how much

younger sister i got

just adopt one not a real one

and sometime when i got punished to much

i start to imagine

is that i belong to this family

have u ever imagined this???

but as the time running and i become thoughtful enough

being an adult is not easy as u can see when u r still small

how about u imagined u got some extra power

haha this is funny

back then when i was a child

one nite i felt i am floating

i thought i got super power

but the truth is

i got disturbed by some unwanted thing

and to avoid the same thing happened

i slept on the bed with been gated by Suratul Yassin

and got a "pusaka" stuff under my pillow

but today children mentality is damaging a lot

what can i say

the world rite now is too open

how come 8 years old kids

know already about sex stuff

thats why im scared of being married

and having a child

hu~~~~

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#113 this is happened

wow

suprisingly this is my 113th entry

and when i see this number

i remember back on 2002

when i was at form 1

at MRSM Muadzam Shah

and that number is my room number

back there...

back there im so weak at beginning

people mistaken me with my rumie

what happened???

he had been bullied during orientation day

and he reported it to the teacher

and quit the school

all the students said im that little guy

coz i look unhappy all the time

of coz lor first time at unknown place

how can i survive if i dont know

anyone there... seyesly im so sad

but by the time goes

im become one of the most

naughty form 1 student

always got punishment

and the most best thing at that time

i got adopt sister

who said to be most feminine gurl

at that school at that time

all my friends jeles at me

included some teacher :P

also during form 2

but now.. i got no one as gf :(

haha forget it

my life back there is really happening

i dont want to go back at that time

coz let it be what it supposed to be

so i can be myself today and so on

>_<

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#112 nightmare!?

everyone has a nightmare

am i rite?

of coz im right

i dont just assume im right

hehe

so lets me tell you one of my experience

of course it hard to believe

it is yours to decide

when we saw something

unknown or in malay word "benda ghaib"

or ghost or whateve

we tend to feel afraid

me too like that

because i never see the exact one

and i just experience it

it doesnot show that im over brave

ok2 lets start the story

one night i cant sleep

i try to sleep but i cant

nah, its ok

i just used internet but then when time goes

im felt bored

so i lay down on the bed

wait for my eyes closed

suddenly my breath feel heavy

something had lay on me

but i cant see

im my mind im just can pray to god

after sometime it got away

i felt so scared

my home is in haunted area

but my mom said it is protected

after minutes i heard dog bark randomly

what the hell

i shut down my laptop

and try to sleep

bang!!!!

something hit the roof

waaa (im cried inside)

what the hell going on

because the sound too strong

my brother woke up and asked me

what happened?

i told i dont know

then he sleep again

because im so scared

im just acting sleep

and the most scared thing come

something hit my foot

and it is so cold~~~~~

owh my god

after that, i never sleep after 3.00am

or if i did,it is because i watch football with my dad

basically this type of nightmare

maybe hallucination???

if it does,why my brother also heard that sound???

it is your to decide to believe or not

>_<

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#111 dedek scammed me..oh no!!!

yesterday is very boring

yeah boring

im just at my room

play games

hear song

sleep

do report

study?never!!!haha

i had just done my last test for this sem

let me rest for awhile ok?

owh this person dedek

how dare she scammed me

directly

haha i know she never read my blog

if she did, serve u right,hehe..

dedek, she want to marry to my friends

and the conversation become longer

as she want to scam me

and i attack her back

because we both the youngest in our family

this is really fun

thank yeah dedek

when im in tensionity

friends is where the place to pour it out

also it is indirectly

but it is enough

thanx again dedek

sampai mati aku panggil ko dedek

hahahahaha(evil laugh)

>_<

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